Monday, October 03, 2005


the finals r finally over!!!




yes!! im soooooo damn glad tat it is finally over... well i din win anyth at all.. but i gotta serve myself rite cos i gotta blame myself too cos i din nt go for the pre judging.. n pre judging is a so damn impt day n stands mostly of the points but yet i had to absent myself...

robert alrdy told me last wk tat i'll jus attend tis pageant n wont be judged at all on finals.. well.. jus take it tat i gif up my chance to others who du deserve it.

ppl always say pageants r bitchy n blah blah.. ITS TRUE. n they r v ya ya n self centred too!

one of the gals tat nite keep askin me dun step on her gown etc etc.. IN A V RUDE N CRUDE WAY!! BITCH!!! blame it on herself who doesn walk properly.. if u r knw u r wearin a gown wif a long trail behind n wif 20 gals n other backstage ppl all squeezing in limited space, PLS USE UR BRAIN N LIFT UP UR GOWN N WALK!!! i cant believe y sm ppl r jus so DUMB!

me for one, always lift up my gown to my ankle level whenever im backstage cos i'd nv wana create any chance for any1 to accidentally/purposely step on my gown. i've heard of such histories b4 n i dun wana be a victim.

n when on stage, she dun lift her gown aside so tat we can stand in a straight line as rehearsed. doesn she knws tat it will appear as a big gap to the audience n it will look very ugly. but she jus dun realise tis logic so no choice, the gap gotta b der cos i dun wana be framed for steppin on her gown!

i was busy fr morning 6am all the way to 11.30pm on sun, which is ytd.. wakeup call at 6am n prepare myself to go for the breast cancer walk. n mind u, i din catch any wink on sat nite cos i cant get to slp at all!! its so damn cold even thou i switch to 25 or 26 degree.

btw, im slpin all alone in the hotel rm cos being the unpopular gal i m, the supposed to share rm wif me wana swop wif sm1 else to slp wif her fren. im okie wif it cos i haf no preference to share wif any1.. den the gal who supposed to share rm wif me wana go bac to that same rm n slp tog wif them... N I M SOOOOOOOO DAMN GLAD!!!! cos i haf the whole rm to myself!! hurray!!

imagine 3 ppl squeezin in a rm... oh god... im thankful i haf the rm all to myself solely!! i can throw my stuff anywhere i like... use the toilet n bathe whenever i like n i dun hafta wait for any1.. waiting is the last ting i'll ever wana do!!

okie...bac to sun prog.. had bfast at the hotel.. it was buffet but the food is nt so fantastic.. prob cos my expectations too high i guess.. but in spore, we dun haf much variety for bfast too..

aft bfast, we head to marina promenade for the breast cancer walk.. its like those kinda New Paper Big Walk thingy.. the last time i went for the walk was yrs ago n its gd to go for such walks on a Sunday morning.. very refreshin!!

we walk for sm distance den head bac to hotel n start our rehearsals.. it was quite tough esp when sm ppl jus dun ustand n do sm simple steps. thus, making the whole lot of us repeat the same thing over n over again.

nt forgettin sm ppl who tink highly of themselves cos they r sure of their own steps n start bossing ppl ard what to do etc.. its reali nt helpful when u speak in a crude n rude manner. yes, its rude. i reali wonder y sm ppl jus cant talk nicely. if u cant talk nicely, i wld suggest u dun talk. like me! nt bcos i dun talk nicely, i jus dun wana say the wrong things n gif ppl a chance to bitch abt me. even nw tat i dun talk, i oso knw tat der r ppl bitchin abt me.. WTH~

aft the whole thing was over, i m sure tat i had a very gd performance. i duno y but i din get any stage fright at all. neither was i nervous abt anyth. maybe its bcos aft so many preview shows, it has reali help me to overcome my stage fright.

PLUS, being prepared for the show is v impt as well. know when to walk n walk to whr etc. the key to this is to practise n practise cos practise make perfect.

the most heartwarming part of this whole pageant was in fact aft the show. i had gone bac to my room to change den i brought all the clothes bac to the ballroom to return. n while im der, a photographer approach me n say i look v familiar n ask me wats my no. (thou im in shorts n a tank top, i still had my makeup n bomba hair on..haha) so i said 19 n he said 'oh..so u r 19.. its one of my fave no. i onli took pics of no. 7, 8 n 19.. both 7 n 8 r the hot faves n i feel so flattered tat im one of his faves too!!! fyi, no7 won Miss Singapore World.

aniw, serve me right for nt winning anyth cos i chose to absent myself fr the pre judging.. when the top 10 was being called up n im nt one of them, the remainin 10 went backstage n sm1 fr the production team was like.. 'c lah.. who ask u dun cm pre judging..' lOlzz~

its okie.. cos the reason which made me join initially was to gain some experience while im stil young n since i stil haben found a job. but right nw, i've gotten myself a job as a banker.. i shall say concentrate on building up my career n climbing the coporate ladder.. life ahead is gonna be much more tough..

politics r worse than bitching.. if i can get over wif bitching.. i might nt be able to handle politics but nevertheless, i'll try.


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