My Final Interview

i gt woken up by my sis today. damnz~ whenever she's ard, it means noise n disturbance.

aniw, i went for my UOB 2nd round of interview. less than 5 mins in the interview, one of the interviewers said tat she feels im more suitable to be a Personal Banker instead of a Associate Officer. Thus, she asked me if i'll be keen to do Sales n b a Personal Banker.

i replied tat of cos i m interested however im nt qualified enuff to be one cos the recruit always states tat to be a Personal Banker, you need a Degree if nt working experience in sales line for a couple for yrs b4 u can be one.

however, they said tat at least i've gt a Diploma so its nt so bad den say tat they'll refer me to the Sales side n ask me wait for their call to go for the interview.. hmmzz~~ okiess~~

later i walk ard raffles place while waiting for Joseph to come fetch me to the airport for my Silkair interview.. guess wad i saw?!

Eu Yan Sen having sale!! omg omg!~

6's Bird Nest selling at onli $29.90 n 4's Essence of Chicken at $6.60 (if i nv get the price wrong)!!

Good Buy Must Buy!!!~~~

So, i bought a box of Bird Nest n 4 boxes of Essence of Chicken!! 3 boxes is for my family while the 4th box for Joseph.. wahaha!!~~ i very nice hor? lOlz!!~~

we went for lunch at Sakae Sushi T2 b4 i went for my interview..

initially i tot it was gonna b a one-to-one interview but im wrong!! its a panel interview!!~~
which means all of us will be seated tog in a room wif 5 for the management staff den we gotta go up one by one to intro ourselves again..

my heart went pom pom when its nearing my turn.. im the 8th gal to speak n when its my turn, the things tat i've plan to say jus dun come out in sequence.. however i still manage to say all the necessary stuff.. the usual kinda qns tat they'll ask or wana know.. such as wat im currently doin, y i wana be a flight stewardess n y i wana join Silkair..

den one of them gave me a qns n tat is 'how will u handle a difficult passenger?'

my reaction was lik diaoz.. wad a general qns how to ans? so i ask him to be more specific n gif me a scenario so i could betta ans it..

so the scenario was 'wad will u do if a passenger complain tat the food is lousy? how will u handle the situation?'

my reply was like 'well, sometimes its nt tat the food is lousy jus tat the passenger is picky.. therefore, the most impt thing is to maintain my smile n tell the passenger tat i appreciate his feedback n cont to ask him wad is it tat we can further improve on. since he dun like the food, prob i'll pacify him wif some drinks n let my teammates know abt tis passenger so they all of us can shower him wif more attention in replace of the lousy food.'

the interviewers den ask me 'r u sure u've nv been a Flight Stewardess?'

i was like 'ya.. never in my life..'

den he was like 'gd!! tats how we train our Stewardess.. So i guess we need nt train u anim liao lah..' haha.. tats a joke he crack so i say 'of cos not.. i like to learn new things' so he turn n look at the other interviewers n nod his head say good..

wad do u tink? will i get in? haha.. but personally i feel i stand quite a high chance cos some of the other gals i tink reali cann make it.. either they say very little things or they dunno wad to say.. n the interviewers oso nv ask them any qns..

den came the tea party whereby its jus like a break time aft a meeting.. we'll hang ard the place n haf some drinks n snacks n mingle wif the interviewers..

earliest we might know the results tml morning cos some of the gals need to gif a mth notice to their current employer but den again, they know im unemployed so i wonder if they send me letter instead.. watever it is, betta nt keep me waiting too long lest i'll go for other jobs liao..

fyi, the turnoff point is tat silkair onli fly regional n turnard trips so cant get to go to tat country n shop.. haiz~ but its okie.. i still haf the passion to fly!!

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++ i wish myself luck ++

nitey nitez!~

8:56 PM

aManDa

for once i had a sound sleep today... slept til 2pm+ today.. aft so long finally get to slp til aftnoon except joseph called me n couldn get bac to slp liao.. *bish*

felt lazy today cos haf been busy wif quite some stuff lazy.. reali feel like slacking at hm n not go out.

however, i stil went for rehearsal today.. there's gonna be another 2 shows on at DXO on 14 n 23 sep. its for Miss Singapore World.. do come support me k.. its free entry for ladies on 14 cos its Ladies Nite!!~~ lOlz!!~ i hope i do betta tis time round..

many of the gals haf gt modelling experience b4 if nt they haf taken part in beauty pageants b4 but i haf neither.. its reali tough to be clad in a bikini in front of so many eyes staring at u.. not forgetting all the cameras n spotlights.. omg~

today we rehearsed the steps for the show at DXO.. its kinda confusing u know cos gotta walk here walk der n hafta imagine the stage at DXO.. its tough..

der was tis guy name alex who came to gave us a talk to booast up our self confidence n morale.. n he taught us how to carry ourselves betta.. every small little details counts.. nt jus the way we sit n stand but oso our hair, manicure, the way we talk n the things we say... so many things wrap up a person..

i guess one thing for now is i mus be more consistent in my gym n eat healthier food.. guess for now i shld stop all my fave junk n oily food.. omg~~ its tough!!~~ haizz..

well, tis the poster for Miss Singapore World 2005.. im the odd one out!!~~ No. 19 is me!! =)

12:33 AM

aManDa

in case u dunno, i always eat maggie mee for lunch when im alone at hm in the aftnoon. n i reali love eating dry ones cos soupy one is very hot n takes a long time to finish it.

Koka is the new brand tat im trying. it contains No-Msg n its nice too!~

tis how i cook my maggie mee.. i'll add lotsa other stuff to it cos i jus hate eating plain ones w/o any other ingredients.. for my style, i'll add hei bi (dried prawns), egg, hotdog n 1 crab stick.

notice my egg is still sorta intact.. its nt all smashed up into small pieces until u cant find it.

ITS YUMMY!!~~

other than myself n family members, onli 2 guys haf eaten it. they r ivan n joseph. both of them oso agree wif me tat it taste YUMMY!!~~ lOlz~

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following American Idol came Singapore Idol. Tats how we gotta know Taufik n Sly. Not forgetting the 'Supposed to get Married Sly n Mia' as well as the slimming endorsement which Olinda gt fr Royal Body Perfect which make her slim down more than 10kg.

frm Singapore Idol came Project Superstar n the upcoming Star Idol and Super host. (Finals for Superstar is on 1Sep n 3Sep is the audition for Star Idol! following 8oct is audition for SuperHost. how fast eh?)

i stil cant ustand wad is the rationale over the craze over Project Superstar. i tink young gals these days r very free n rich. can go all out to support singers wannabes.. i tink im gettg old which is y such shows doesn interests me at all.

except for the first few episodes whereby they show all the auditions of those Superstars wannabes, i've NEVER catch any episode of it frm then on, ever since the 24 finalists cos i cant be bothered.

its reali very hilarious, funny n entertaining on a wkday evening watchin how far n lowdown these ppl can get. they can do all kinda stupid things wif the hope of gettin shortlisted. some 30+ aunties oso can take part!! omg~ dun these ppl haf a mirror?! pls look at urself in the mirror n ask urself in which way r u like a superstar!? its reali a gd way to explain the chinese idiom, 'Bu Zi Liang Li'.

i dunno how the competition went thru, wat they did n how they select but i knw tat Kelly n Wei Lian r the champs for the female n male sector grp. they will be competiting for the superstart throne soon n ppl haf been tokg abt it.

but pls, i feel its pretty obvious who will win. no matter wad, i stil believe that tis world is unfair n filled wif unjustice. get wad i mean? nt tat i support Kelly but i feel tat she'll be the winner. y? well, all of us knows tat Wei Lian is blind. God has been fair to him. althou He took away his sight, he blessed him wif a gd voice. i onli rem him as the one watchin the Xiong Tian Ping song during the audition n his vocal is reali gd.

Tink abt it, the judges haf been gd to him, they made him the winner of the male sector. if they kick him out, ppl r bound to say tat judges r unfair cos they kick him out jus bcos he's blind? esp when he can reali sing? cant be rite?

therefore, he's now the winner of the males sector but can he b a superstar? well, reality is cruel. how is he gonna be the winner of Project Superstar? the winner is bound to get a contract wif some recording company in which he or she will get to cut album of her own, solo concerts, autograph session etc etc. n prob might even get to break into the Taiwan market n be the next Stephanie Sun.

Nevertheless, the person will oso get endorsement deals n get to b the spokesperson of diff products. Not forgetting the many unknown priveleges be it shopping, eating or clubbing. im sorry to say tis but can a blind get to enjoy all these?

the fact n truth is clear. no need to compete n i believe they will make Kelly the winner. she isn't the kinda gal i'll say is pretty or charming or sexy. look at ur next door n der she is. she jus got the gal next door look but she's blessed wif luck n chance.

check out http://ch8.mediacorptv.com/index.php n u can c they onli show Kelly's Pic in 'Countdown to Project Superstar Grand Finals'. Where is Wei Lian's pic?!?!?!?!? c wad i mean by the reality is cruel?

nevertheless, i cant help but to tink, if the Americans did not organise n start American Idol, Taufik, Sly, Kelly, Wei Lian, etc etc wil stil remain unknown. Dun u agree wif me?

4:21 PM

aManDa

My Tired Weekend~

fri 26 Aug

Dance show wif Jolin at Now & Then. Seems to us tat the molesters, lechers, ti go pek has suddenly all being released out n into Now & Then. Cos in our entire life in dancing, we haben met a day whereby ppl attempt to molest us so many times in a nite!~

tats me n Jolin in tis pic. The costume for the nite is tis sequin bikini top + black skirt + black boots.

WTH!! They reali deserve a kick fr me in their cock n they r nt worthy of Father's Day!

Well, tat pub consists of plenty of Philipinos n they r der to earn $$$. So the customers at the pub can get the companion of these gals n there is a 'Freedom Of Touch'. Tis means tat they can touch the gals anywhere they like n tat includes their boobs + butt.

I tink sth seems so wrong wif tat pub tat day.. usually i dun get to c alot of free shows. however, i saw endless of free show tat nite which totally disgusts me..

1st Disgust : a gal was lifting up her mini skirt showing her butt + g-string n shaking her butt infront of tis Indian guy n tis guy was touching her bare butt wif his bare hands.

YUCKS!!

but the next moment, i saw tat gal swinging her torn g-string in 1 hand waving in the air. OMG!
tat gal or prob the guy tore up her g-string n she's left wif nth! den she cont to bend down in front of tat indian guy, lift up her skirt n shake her bare butt!!

YUCKS!!! YUCKS!!! YUCKS!!!

i feel damn grossed up by her.

2nd Disgust : another gal who was alrdy hugging tis guy, suddenly lift up her bra n wipe her nipple wif a slice of lemon n ask the guy to lick her breast.

3rd Disgust : a small size gal was sitting on top of a big size ang moh n his hands were all over her, inside out. get wat i mean? well, let ur imagination run wild n u'll knw wad i mean.

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at 1 pt of time, i suddenly felt sm1 pull my bikini top string. when i turn n look, i saw 2 guys behind me + their hands! i scolded one of them n he say its nt him. he claim he was jus 'holdin' my string n nt pull it. den fr my side angle, i saw the other guy pulling my string even thou he was huggin another Fillipino in his hands! i stared hard at him n he stil gt the cheek to smile.

WTH!?!?!?

the onli gd dumb guy in tat grp who saw wad happen came forward to apologise on their behalf. i was so damn pissed but i let it go. No choice. Wat to do? i so pai mia cos i need tis income.. haizz~
den tis same jerky asshole tried lift up Jolin's skirt while she was doin tokin to other customers. Me n the gd dumb guy saw n grab his hand. i stared at him all ready to scold n slap him but the gd dumb guy stop me n told tat jerky asshole tat Jolin is his gf, ask him dun touch her. den he stil got the cheek to ask him wad abt me? den he told him im oso his gf.

I M SO ANGRY!! WTH! i was tinkin wad if the gd dumb guy say im nt his gf as well, does tat means tat he wil have every rite to touch me? i reali feel like giving him a kick + punch. but, Jolin stop me n say forget it.

later in the nite, i encountered another ti go pek who tried lift up my skirt! luckily i was alrdy on my guard and i push the hand away when i felt sm1 touch my skirt. damnz~~

when i was walkin ard the pub, tis indian guy suddenly hold my hand n pull me to him n wana kiss my hand. im totally disgusted by him. he refuse to let go off me n i gt so pissed off tat i jus brush off his stupid hand hard.

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head down Thumper for awhile wif the gd dumb guy (which jolin describe him as) n his 2 vendors (tats wad he calls them) . he was being made a fool by one of his vendor w/o even realising it. tat asshole ordered 2 graveyards for us as a 'welcome' drink n told him its jus coke.
U tell me whr got ppl so evil?!?!? use graveyard as 'welcome' drink?! WTF! he shld lick my toes instead!

n the stupid dumb guy stil doesn knw how potent graveyard is. i refuse to drink n he stil gt the cheek to tell me it taste alrite n ask me drink slowly even aft i told him the intensity of the drink but he stil dun get wad i mean. WTH!~ whr gt ppl so dumb????

i wonder how he gets his license cos he doesn seems to knw how to drive!! he jus took over his sis car n its a auto car but he gt the cheek to ask me whr is the clutch!? %&#*#($
ok, he's drunk but he doesn let me drive. reali make me panic cos i hafta teach him how to go devils, look out the traffic for him, tell him when to change signals, which lanes to go n worse still, gotta press his horn for him to avoid accident!! omg~ suddenly i felt lik a driving instructor.

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Devils Bar - Pro Lau celebrating his 50th bday der. so many ppl were der. He's drunk. aftall, bday ppl sure get drunk rite?!

Joseph went momo but he came fetch me hm aft devils as well as to pass me my iPod.
OMG OMG!!~~ i got my P I N K iPod!! finalli!!~ aft soo long!

he went to several diff shops to get for me cos all the shops sold out their 4Gb pink iPod. tis was his last straw to get the 6Gb for me cos i dun lik silver n tats the onli color left n i cant change the cover n i jus wan P I N K. the initial one has gt problems cos i cant connect it wif my PC. sad~

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sat 27 Aug

finalli i got my iPod mini. Yes, the P I N K one. Joseph bought it for me cos i reali love it. He went to many shops to look for it cos the 4Gb left onli silver no pink. N i dun like silver so he went round n round looking for the pink one but reali no more pink so he got the 6Gb for me. 1500 songs!! omg!~ ;p

Unfortunately, i gt a spoilt one cos i cant connect the iPod to my com. its either the iPod or the USB cable problem.

I spent the whole nite trying to fix it but i failed so Joseph came over help me in the aftnoon but the same problem is stil der so he brought it bac to the shop to exchange for a new one.

im so thrilled n overjoyed over my new iPod. =)

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i went for dinner wif my family at Bugis. Yum Yum.. we had Crabs!! My FaVoUrItE!~ heezz~~

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meet Joseph at Cine. wanted watch movie but timing not suitable cos we're meetin frens at momo at 11pm. cant make it in time. haiz~~

I WANA WATCH MOVIES!!~~

so i pei him go eat den took a stroll along Orchard cos the shops r closed. Nowhr to shop. haiz~
however, the streets r stil bustling wif many ppl!~

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head down to Momo. the usual table + the usual ppl + the usual drinks.

i had fun. but i wasnt drunk. n im tired.

But,

i stil came hm to connect my iPod, hoping it works n well, IT DOES!!

Rejoice!~

yipee ya ya.. yipee yipee ya!! hurray!! my iPod works!

No more boring rides on the MRT n bus! i can bring it to the gym! i can bring it wherever i go!~

Thanks Joseph for ending all my misery. *hugs*

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A TRIBUTE TO JOSEPH :-

Thanks for getting me tis P I N K iPod.

Thanks for the effort tat u've made to go to so many shops jus to get the P I N K one for me.

Thanks for paying $438 for tis 6Gb iPod.

Thanks for coming over on sat to try help me fix the spoilt one.

Thanks for bringing the faulty iPod bac to the shop to change another one.

Thanks for comin over on sat nite to help me get my iPod connected to my com n import songs.

Thanks for everything.

nitey nites!~

(p/s : i need a charger as well as accessories for my iPod now.)

11:15 PM

aManDa

it has ended. finally.

well, at least i no longer hafta travel to the other part of singapore. i hate taking long mrt rides.

it totally sucks.

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i woke up in shock tis morning cos i realised sm1 off the power to my computer switch.

i screamed n i shouted for mum.

i was charging my new iPod for the first time.

i need to charge it at least a couple of hrs jus like wad u do to a new hp.

BUT,

my dad off it. damnz~

i cant blame him cos ignorance is bliss.

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i head down for the last preview show. i din go ytd cos i din slp much + im nt feeling well + a lil hangover. to simplify it, i jus dun feel like gg.. hee hee~

i onli realised its swimwear today. well, no choice but gotta show every1 my fat thighs, arms, tummy etc.. haha~

1st round was casual wear sponsored by tis shop n the clothes they gt for us majority nt suitable for us but we stil wore it.

2nd round was bikini wear.

3rd round was 1pc swim wear.

these photos r courtesy of Thomas, the photographer.

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some of the gals plan to go for steamboat buffet after the show but Joseph is here to fetch me liao so i left. i was damn hungry cos haben ate or drank anyth the whole day so we head down to Changi Village for nasi lemak.

its amazing how come der r so many ppl der despite being in a ulu part of singapore whereby transport is inconvenient unless u travel by car or cab.

the 2 stalls r long queue wif ppl. they r famous for their nasi lemak. $2 gets u nasi + ikan bilis + egg + chicken wings + sambal + 2 slices of cucumber. cheap rite??!!! n its nice.. yummy~!~

aft nasi lemak, Joseph brought me to a very nice place n tats Changi Beach. b4 tat, he showed me the woman prison is as well as the SAF Ferry Terminal.. the one which takes new recruits to Tekong.

arrival at Changi Beach

the park leading to the beach. the path way is like a S-Course. Forest on my right n beach on my left. nice and peaceful~

tats Pulau Tekong behind me!~

writing my name on the sand...

Joseph's Masterpiece

the remains from the waves . . .

++ us ++++ him ++

++ me ++

we left at abt 8pm cos the sky has set n the sky is turning dark. im afraid of forest. esp at nite when its so dark + all the cricket sound = scary

on our way bac, we took the airplane runway.. a super long rd wif the occassional planes landing.. i like tat place.. im a aspiring flight stewardess.. i wana take tat run way as many times as possible til i get sick of it.

i concust as soon as we rch the end of the runway when we rch ECP cos im too tired.

so i slept all the way fr changji to jurong.

time for me to slp nw. im gonna switch both my phones to silent mode cos i wan quality rest n nt wan any disturbance.

i jus wana slp tight tight!! but my iPod haben finish chargin.. how? haiz~

nitey nitez!~

2:56 AM

aManDa

Yippeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!! 3 Gd news in a row!!

I'm so happy!!!

Cos im selected for 3rd Round of Interview with Silkair!!! Yeah!!~~ I'm another step closer to flying!!!

I jus rcv a call fr Silkair.. Luckily I'm home to rcv tis call.. But well, i guess its bcos i change my Singtel number thus ppl haf been callin up my hse to look for me!!

Interview is on next Tuesday at 2pm.. omg~~~!!! Im so excited!!! i guess i'll be receiving the letter today cos they sent it out ytd!!!~~~ omg omg!! im overjoyed!!!!! yeah~~ lOlzzz~~

but ideally i stil hope to fly wif SIA cos tats my dream!! to be a Singapore Girl!! haiz.. wad shld i do? i heard SIA n JAL opening for recruitment in Sep.. shld i wait?

wad if i pass my Silkair interview n they offer me appt letter liao but SIA n JAL stil haben open for recruitment how?

wad if i cant get thru their interview how? by den i wont haf SIA JAL n nt even Silkair!! how how?! SOMEONE PLS TELL ME HOW??? im in a major dilemia nw.. SAD SAD!! =( =(

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another thing worth rejoicing abt is tat someone is getting a P I N K iPod mini for me today!!! omg omg~~!!! im so happy!!!~~ finali can get my hands on my long awaited iPod!!!

im so surprised tat Joseph has finali decided to get the iPod for me.. haha~~

i've always wanted a iPod, digi cam n a new phone..

its so dumb n boring to take the train onli be able to look at the ppl opp u blindly.. so silly rite?!

almost every1 has gt a digi cam except me. nt forgettg tat im a photo snappin freak!! n its troublesm to always hafta borrow cam fr my sis u knw.. sm more i need to haf a valid reason in order to borrow it fr her.. if its nt cos of my pageant nw, i oso cant haf the camera wif me nw..

my 7610 is problemetic.. its giving me sooo many problems... suddenly can jus shut down or restart.. nt forgetting the most irritating stupid app closed thingy.. always close down when im in the midst of sth.. n it reali piss me off when i type a long msg onli to c app closed.. WTH!!! damnzz~~ sm time i reali feel lik smackin my stupid phone hard.. cos my phone is lik a handicap nw!! my mmc card is stuck in my sis com for very very long!!! all my stuff r all in tat card.. damn it! damn it!!~

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3rd gd news!! im gg overseas again!!! omg~~ n the tot of tis is enuff for me to jump ard!! lOlz~~ althou im jus gg to our neighbour country but im stil so excited cos im finali gg to KL..!! omg~~ i've always been gg to JB JB n more JB n nw i can go smwhr further is so ermmzz.. cant describe tat feeling!! haha~

at first i tot we're gonna take a coach der cos Joseph say he dun wana drive.. n i always kinda sian 1/2 cos taking bus is such a damn slow tortoise moving esp when the distance is so long!! but gd news is tat he jus told me he's gonna drive!!! wahaha~~ n he say the journey wil take onli 3 1/2 hrs.. how nice.. i can slp along the way again.. lOlzz~~

2 cars gg tog.. 3 couples 6 ppl in all.. tats the stats.. hopefully gg in sep.. i cant wait to go KL!! i love travelling so so much!! omg~~ mus start to save sm money so can go der SHOP SHOP SHOP!!! wahaha~~ read on xiaxue blog.. she jus went KL recently n she bought shoes fr tis shop cal NOSE.. omg!! the shoes r so pretty n lovely n unique!! I OSO WANA GO TAT SHOP BUY SHOES!!!!! argh~~ n i oso wana stay in tat hotel wif the indoor roller coaster!! omg.. even if nt stay der i oso wana go der take a look!!

hmmm.. come to tink of it.. if joseph is drivin tat means i cant get to take their monorial le.. haiz.. but on the brighter side is tat i dun hafta take the cabs of those exhorbitant n ridiculous taxi drivers!! Rejoice!!~~

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3 gd news in a row!! omg~~ i cant take it!! im stil tryin to digest all the joy n excitement rite nw..

if ur haf been to KL b4, pls pls tell me wad is fun der n wad r the places i shld go, stay etc.. i cant wait!!! im gg to surf online for info on KL NOW!!! ahahah!!~~

2:58 PM

aManDa

im supposed to meet Joshua 1.30pm but i arrived at onli 2.30pm!! lOlzz.. we took bus 16 to East Coast n the journey took 45mins! but it doesn seems tat long prob cos we tok n listen to songs along the journey.. haiz~~ i start to c more n more the need n importance for me to get my iPod mini.. haiz~~ $348 for 4Gb n $438 for 5Gb lei.. how m i suposed to born tat $$$ out? how? u tell me how?

aniw, we rch ECP at 3pm+. as soon as we touch down, i wana take pictures!! haha..

alrite.. tis joshua.. our 1st pic of the day~

we proceed on to the bicycle shop n rent a double bike.. bcos.. I DUNNO HOW TO CYCLE!! wahaha~ but i like cycling! lOlzz~

din knw the bicycle shops in ECP haf a buy 1 get 1 free offer on wkdays.. haha.. so u get to cycle for 2hrs n pay onli $8 on wkdays but jus 1 hr on wkends..

aniw, i discovered sth abt roller blading.. if u rent the blades fr tis shop on wkends on certain hrs, u get free lessons on how to blade!! wow~ im definitely gg bac during the wkends cos I WANNA LEARN ROLLER BLADING!! hee hee~

we cycle for very very long den we decided to take a break!

thus, photo taking sessions begins~!!

tats me n the bike.. cool eh? haha~

i snap a pic of joshua while he's on the line. so artistic feel rite? im so proud of myself! haha~

so, i insist tat he take the same kinda feel for me. but, sad to say, i feel tat im a betta photographer than him! tis the best shot he took for me! =(

therefore i decided to do it myself...

haha~ say cheeze!~ but he say i crazy.. keep snapping myself.. but i dun care.. lOlzz~

aniw,

i decided to include him in the pic as well! haha~

we proceed on our journey n decide to go to Bedok Jetty. But along the way..

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we saw a big grp of army guys marching n singing the zhao pai song!! (Every where we go-oh, ppl wana knw-oh..) even thou its a very big grp of them but they were so well camouflaged wif the grass n trees!! lOlz~~

again, joshua say i crazy cos i took tis while cycling n poor joshua had such a hard time trying the balance the bike cos i freed my hands! lOlz~

well, tis proves tat i was at Bedok Jetty today.. =D

At Bedok Jetty, i insist tat Joshua takes the artistic feel pic for me again..

n im glad he somehow did it! althou it could be betta but yeah~~ i love tis pic.. tats his oakleys mind u.. i hate such black sunglasses.. oopss~~ lOlz~

of cos we cont to take sm pics b4 gg off.. n sth happened on our way bac..

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aren't these 'bus stops' along the jetty cute?!?!? omg~~ of cos mus take again lah even wif the dustbin!! wahaha!!!~~~

dunno wad special occassion is today cos there were damn freakg alot alot of army guys running in ECP!! all along the park u c several sweaty half naked guys clad in a pair of tiny shorts running.. nt forgettin sm older ones wif a buldging beer belly.. however, sad to say, i din manage to c any cute n well toned guys.. therefore, i cant b bothered to take pics of these ppl..

on our way bac, i attempted to take pics of myself cycling but i failed..

upon seeing me failing aft several attempts, the guy sitting in front decided to gif it a shot..

hmmmzz... aren't he supposed to be a lousy photographer? how did he manage to snap tis? funny rite? haha~~ of cos he gt a little ya ya abt it..

along the way, we pass by the turtle pond!! omg! omg! nice scenery wif big turtles!! omg~

very big hor?? these r turtles which ppl release them.. hmm.. i wldn wanna keep such big turtles as well.. heezz~

its me again standing on the pond tryin to strike a cool pose..den i saw sth interestin b4 leaving..

soooooo many sparrows crowding at the stone chair suddenly!! omg omg!! joshua cant resisit such a scenario tat he took one wif his phone as well.. amazing ya?

while lookin at these sparrows, i saw my own shadow..

so i snap it!! wahaha~~

when joshua cant stand all my photo taking nonsense, he hurried me bac cos its abt times up to return the bicycle but we stil manage to go bac b4 time..

there were some shops ard the area so i went to take a look n bought sth..

yeah.. i love my new bikini!!!~~ yippeee!!~~ finali gotten tis kinda box shorts bikini which i wanted for so long n tis cost me onli $25.. =D

guess who i saw at ECP...

ITS MOSES LIM!!! wahaha~~

guess whr we went next??

Bowling Time!!

Obviously im a lousy bowler compared to Joshua.. cos tis like the 4th or 5th time i've ever bowled in my whole life span!!

the 2 lanes beside us all so damn pro.. on my right were tis 2 teenagers n the guy so damn funny cos everytime b4 he bowl, he wil bend down, take in a deep breath in his special pose.. ma chiam lian gong lidat.. haha~ but he oso nt tat pro cos he oso feed the drains a few times.. lOlz~

the couple on my left than pro.. the guy is sporean n the gal fr china.. they always either strike or spare.. while i always either feed the right drain if nt the left drain..

WTH!!!~~~ Y M I SO LOUSY IN BOWLING?!?!!??!

we played for duno 3 or 4 games den we stop cos my hands starts to ache! n my thumb nail polish is starting to chip off!! cann.. cann.. mus stop cos i jus painted my nails last nite!!~~

so, we end the day wif dinner n took the bus 16 bac to tiong bahru.. tis time round, the journey bac hm seems much faster..

i had so much fun today.. so healthy lifestyle.. =) its definitely sooo much betta to absorb all the fresh air in parks n beach instead of all the smelly smoke in pubs n discos!! =)

im definitely gg bac to East Coast Park again!! sm1 pls jio me der!!! heezz~~

time to orrr orrr liaozz~~

nitey nitez!!~~

12:10 AM

aManDa

My 2nd Round Of Interview

okie, i admit, im a sleepyhead. i love nua-ing in bed. ytd i overslept. today i oso ALMOST overslept.. luckily i stil manage to wake up in time.. within half an hrs fr waking up, i quickly brush my teeth, bathe, make-up n eat.. rush down to take a cab to SIA Training Centre. damnzz~ the cab fare cost $23.50.. wth!!!~~~

the security was packed wif ppl.. plenty of them were gals same as me, gg for 2nd round of interview at 9am.. n the clock is striking at 9am SOON!! omg~ luckily the other 2 counter which was near me cleared n i immediately go over n change for my pass n quickly go in.. aftall, its nt gd to b late for interview rite?

i walked over main lobby onli to find another grp of gals der den the security guard brought us over to the interview room... over der, i saw another grp of gals!! omg~ i took my attendance n handed in my form n wait..

upon waiting, the previous grp of gals who came earlier went to put on Silkair's uniform..

so i cont to wait.

den, its my turn to change into the uniform!! i felt so sad when i was changin in the toilet..

WHY?!?!?!?

u all knw im fat. wad worse can it get when u get a uniform smaller than ur size?!?!?!? i had to breathe in to suck in my tummy n get the help of others to help me zip up! im damnz freakg sad u knw!!!!! =(

aniw, at least i did manage to zip it up althou i gotta remain breathe in n suck my tummy in if nt, the dress is like gonna burst anytime!!! God, i pray to u to take awayall my fats, cholestrol. Not forgetting my big tummy, thighs, legs n flabby arms!! Pls bless me wif a slim, slender n toned body!! well, u heard my prayer.

ok, bac to topic. those who got changed into the uniform jus hang ard n wait. wait to b called into the rm for interview. well, ard 5-8 gals gt into a rm wif 2 interviewers. all we hafta do is to walk up to them, show them both sides of ur hands. (when i handed out my hands, 1 of them commented 'nice nails! did u jus had a manicure?) lOlzz~

they did a very detailed check. when i say detailed, its reali detailed cos they look carefully at ur face n gotta lift up fringe to show ur forehead as well as ur ponytail to c ur neck. they oso check my arms, esp ard the sleeves area.

following tat, i gotta walk up n down.. last but not least, SMILE!!! ya.. tats the requirement.. they wan u to show them ur brightest, loveliest, friendliest n sweetest smile.. well, so i sMiLe!!~

one of them asked me if i always color my hair or bleach it often..
so i replied.. : "ya.. but its bcos i needed to cover my grey hair.. =( "
the other interviewer cont.. : "oh so sad.. u're still so young n u've got grey hair liao.."
me.. : "ya lor.. wad to do? its inheritance from my parents.. =( "

den tog they replied.. : "oic.." (n cont to scribble sth on their board)
den tog they look at my tummy.. i was like "erm.. im fat.. so tis kinda tight.. heezz"
"oh, its alrite.. dun worry.. tis can be altered".. i heaved a sigh of relief..

aft tat, i went out to change bac into my clothes n told to go into the waitin rm n wait. tis wait is for the results of those who r being shortlisted to move on to the next round which is call the 'Water Confidence Test'. which is more commonly known as 'The Swimming Test'.

when the lady came in to announce the results of those being shortlisted in my grp, my heart was lik pom pom tiao.. sooo damn nervous.. but im glad my name was being called n i heaved a sigh of relief.. PHEW!!!~ n the wait continues. . . . . . . . . . (the time nw is 10am)

slowly, gals came in to wait for the results.. those whose names r called, get to stay while the rest hafta leave.. i waited until abt 12+ den we proceed to change into our swimwear b4 gg to haf refreshments. the refreshments r quite well standard.. there were sandwiches, curry puffs, kueh da da as well sm as other kuehs.. quite nice nice~~ but the coffee is damn bitter... even aft adding sugar... haiz~

aft refreshments, we proceed bac to the waiting rm to wait again.. but tis wait is short, cos soon aft, we were brought to our swimming test location..

there were a dummy plane and a pool.. one by one, each of us gt our life jackets n stood infront of 3 interviewers n turn 1 round for them to c den we went up the plane n wait for instructions.. followin tat, a guy brief us on wad to do n how to wear the life jacket..

i was damn suay.. cos i took a faulty life jacket!!! damnzz!!~~ der were 2 sides to blow.. 1 of my side cant blow which means my bottom part is inflated!!~~ omg!!! omg!!! i told the guy but he ignored me n ask me wait until my turn den he tel me wad to do.. n when its my turn, he say its ok. ask me to depend on jus the top part wil do n ask me JUMP! damnzz~~!! i was lik tinkg i alrdy so bui zai liao + tis bui zai life jacket.. HOW HOW??!! u tell me how? i stonez for 1 sec n look down at the water.. it was onli at tat 1 sec den i saw the fear in me to jus jump down.. omg~

nevertheless, i jumped down n i immediately trap water n i swallowed a big mouth of water!! another omg~! den the guy shouted at me askg me to turn ard cos we hafta swim back stroke usin freestyle.. EVEN MORE OMG!!! cos I DUNNO FREE STYLE!! i onli knw breast stroke.. or betta known as frog style!! i jus hold on to my jacket n paddled my way bac.. i attempted to swim freestyle but i fail so i gave up..

tats all for today. cos we r told to go bac n wait for letter to c if we r selected for third round of interview which wil be on next tues.. DIE LAH!! i swim until so sucky.. will i get shortlisted anot? i dunno but i hope so.. its gonna be a 1-to-1 interview..

+++wish me luck!!+++

aft tat, i went to bugis meet joseph for lunch thou it was alrdy lik 3+ when i meet him.. aft he go bac to wrk, i went to look for joshua den he ask me pei him eat so we went Sketches n i ate sm 'Balls of Fire' which is actualli meat balls wif sm special home made sauce.. quite nice but mus be eaten hot.. aft he go bac wrk den i jus came hm... n online til nw.. lOlzz~~

time to zzz... tml gg east coast cycling.. mus wake up early!! hope can haf time to blade as well..

~~nitey nitez~~

2:25 AM

aManDa

Well, i chance upon tis on my fren's frenster n abstracted it here cos i tink its somehow quite true n meaningful..

*-*

To fall in love is always easy, to start a relationship is always simple...
To build it, is always tough,
To maintain it, is 'Better Said Than Done',

To break off, is 'Easier Said Than Done',
To remain friends after u broke off, is never possible,
To forget the memories is what I am 'always doing but never succeeding',
To heal the pain within is hard and tough and never near simple, but one has to try to heal your own heart.

The heart belongs to u, if u don't heal it and have a space for someone new to walk in,
The heart will always be sealed, memories will never be forgotten, the pain will never go, and u will never move on from where u started.

*-*

People take wrong directions all the time.
If not, how do we ever realise our mistakes and make better choices, late it might be for your life so far, but it is never too late for your life ahead,
Maybe through wrong directions, you made the wrong choices.

But does it mean that through the right directions, you would always make the right choices?
If everything seems like a big trial... hold on to your faith...
For at least, you had a chance to live a choice.
Love still hurts as much as it used to,

*-*

I have a kind of love in me,
Some love that lets me think and care about you and the more wanting to be with you,
But love made a twist and I could never be with you caring for you and holding your hand is possible but we could never be together,

Not even thinking about being together cuz it would hurt me so much to even think,
Sad it might be but this feeling would never go,

*-*

Just like birds in the skies,
I hope to be close to you, but no matter how close I am to you,
There is just this one thing that keeps me away,

Your heart, the further you are from me,
The nearer I want to be with you,
But the nearer I am to you, the further you are from me...

: : : : : : : : : : : : : : : : : : : :

i overslept today. i din do any of them 4 things i mention ytd. i din go for any interviews today. cos its raining heavily so i slept.

but, im glad i went gym. cos i did 1 1/2hr cardio exercise n burn off 800 calories. its a mere 800 calories n the packet of cheezels i finished replenish everything back. damnz~

im gg slp. tml silkair interview. no matter wad, die die oso mus go!!!

nitey nitez~

12:14 AM

aManDa

I have finally decided wat i wana b!!

yes, aft bumming ard for so long, i have set my mind on one thing. i wana be a flight stewardess!!
tats my ambition n decision. i onli have 2 airlines in mind now- either SIA or JAL.

however, i'll stil cont to go for my silkair interview on wed. currently there r no openings for recruitment in my 2 ideal airlines. i missed the SIA i went for previously cos i failed. i could have done betta but i was reali way to nervous den but its ok, i wil try again.

i realliiiieeeeeeeee love travelling. i wana go to all the different parts of the world to experience the culture, life style, food, shopping, etc etc!! Fyi, Sagittarians are born travellers!!~~ heezz~~

althou alot of ppl haf been tellg me to tink twice abt being a cabin crew esp SIA as i'll turn to become shallow n materialistic + all the bitchiness among the crew n politics wif the seniors etc etc BUT, I DUN CARE..y shld i bother myself wif all these other brainless ppl? every company is bound to haf politics nt jus in SIA. does tat means tat i shldn work at all jus to avoid politics? well, tats dumb! n mind u, im nt dumb!

pls pls ppl, do help me keep a lookout n inform me immediately when SIA or JAL r opening up for recruitments!!!

in the meantime, im stil tryin to find out if how long is the bond n contract tat silkair is. for SIA i knw the contract is 5yrs n bond is 2yrs. wad abt silkair?!?! wil sm1 pls tell me? if i reali get into silkair, i dun mind flying wif them for 1 yr den crossover to SIA cos aftall SIA n JAL r international airlines whereas Silkair onli flies to regional areas of onli 26 destinations. haiz~~ nevertheless, i realie to hope to fly fly fly.. fly up high in the sky..

althou i haf alrdy set my mind on being a cabin crew, i wil stil go for my Canon n Uob interview tml. its gd to go for interviews. reali helps u to gain experience. tokg abt canon, im amused by them. I rcv 2 calls fr them at 2 diff timings fr 2 diff ppl. lOlz~~ but they onli haf 1 same motive n tat is to tell me tat i've been shortlisted to go for an interview. i was tinkg how come their system so funny huh.. dun they combine all the shortlisted ppl's profile n call together? y do they haf my resume n call me separately? hmmmzz~~

:-:-:-:-:-

btw, u may think y isit tat i seems to be always gg for interviews so y m i stil unemployed? mind u, i dun go for alot of interviews k n i do get 'cheated' a couple of times cos it turns out to be a Prudential office.. damnzz~~ wasted my time onli to find out tat the so-call Sales & Marketing job is none other than being a Financial Planner. damnzzz~!!!! wth~~!@@

Joseph always ask me to look thru newspapers recruit.. well, i do look thru but i prefer gg online.. thru job's website or straight at the company's website. tats the case for UOB.. i wonder how is the 2nd round of interview wif them gonna b like tml.. its a customer service job.. nt my ideal job but i'll still go n c how its like.. heezz heezz~~

let me c.. how many interviews haf i actuali went in these 4 mths.. well,nt counting those which i 'gt cheated' n those job agencies interviews.. hmmzz.. let me recall.. the very 1st interview i went aft i came bac fr Taiwan was a recruitment consultant wif Jobline. haha.. tokg abt tat job i wana laugh.. i went for the interview n signed the employment form.. supposed to report for work the next day but i PONTAN!!!! wahaha~~ but no penalties so its alrite.. the pay is sooo damn miserable so i rather nt waste my time..

den der was another 1 wif tis IT company which Fiona introed me somewhr near Bras Basah.. the onli interview i went whereby the interviewers which is 2 guys asked qns like 'r u single, do u club'.. funni rite? dunno they conducting interview for sales job or matchmaking.. haha!~ aniw, i din get tat job cos according to Fiona, they feels my expected salary is too high for them liao n they scared tat being a fresh graduate, i wont stay in their company for long n wil leave aft 1 mth.. haha.. wad a joke..

i went for 2 DBS interviews as well.. 1 was a dunno wad job.. introed by my sis.. i emphasize alot tat im lookg for a sales job.. thus, i din get tat job.. well.. u shld haf guessed the reason y.. cos tat is nt a sales position!!!! wahaha.. another joke.. but they passed my resume to the mortage side ppl n 1 of them called me if im keen to take up a marketing position wif them but i stil emphasize on the same thing. i jus wana land into a sales job.

as for the other DBS position, it was to be their bank teller.. damnzz~~!! wth~~ the same thing happpens.. the interviewer seems quite pleased wif me thruout the interview until when she ask me my expected salary den she peng.. haha~~ needless to say, u shld knw the results to tat interview..

i went for 2 Citibank interviews for the position of a New Aquisition Officer as well as Customer Service. the interviewer for the 1st job told me 1 thing n tat is i dun haf corporate sales experience + im a fresh grad + im stil so young!! well, i knew the ans he had for me den. i gt rejected. damnz.. 2nd position was intro by Wendy.. i did get selected bt they called me too late cos i started my job wif DNA..

so tats 6 interviews alrdy.. the 7th one was introed by Fiona at DNA Communications.. betta knwn as Grid.. subsidiary of Singtel.. it was a Sales position but bcos im a fresh grad wif no prior corporate sales experience, they employed me to start off doin telesales b4 moving up to be Sales Executive.. i did accepted the job but i left aft a wk.. mainly cos of the distance (its at amk!! so far!!) + its a desk bound job which i cant stand n hate the most!!

yupz, i din forget the SIA interview which i went n failed the 1st round.. haha.. but its ok, i will definitely try again.. 8jobs so far.. 9th job was Uob.. it was a group interview.. 5 of us + 1 interviewer n i did get in.. 10th job was Silkair, another grp interview.. 10 + 2 n i did get in.. 2nd round on wed..

omg!!~~ din realised i've alrdy gone for 10 interviews so far but in 4mths seems kinda little ya? lOlzz..~~ however, i onli gt 1 aim nw n tat is to be a Flight Stewardess.. tats all!~~

:-:-:-:-:-

alriteys.. its alrdy 2am nw.. time to zzz.. here's my schedule for tml :-

1) 9.30am interview wif Canon at Keppel Bay Tower
2) 10am appt wif Joseph at Habourfront for breakfast
3) 11.10am interview wif Uob at Uob Plaza
4) Grooming class - not cfm

nitey!!~~

12:04 AM

aManDa

R u sure u wana be a model?

well.. being a model is like almost every gal's dream.. i used to haf tat imagination too.. it does looks cool n glam to be cat-walkin on the stage wif the hair n clothes of the season ya? BUT, fuck it.. it onli LOOKS but its definitely not cool at all!

i started writing my blog onli at tis hr of a freakg 4.29am is ALL BCOS i spent the past 3 damn long hrs trying to remove the stupid glue off my hair!!! WTH?!?!?!? ^*#&#@&

ok wait a min.. y is der GLUE ON MY HAIR? well, sm of my frens knws tat im in tis thingy which is known to b a brainless bimbo competition (betta known as a beauty pageant) n der's a hair show today.. so, my hair was being styled in a way which I HATE IT cos its being treated GENEROUSLY wif hair sprays, glitter and glue to stick on the purple glitter on a streak of my hair + sth tat im amazed of n tats the nail art stickers!!! omg~~!! yes, its the kinda stickers tat i'll use it for my nicely painted nails!! i nv knew such a trend of nail art stickers moving up a level to our heads.. n to be used as a hair style.. its reali ..

okie.. tis the purple streak thing on my hair.. mind u, tat is purple glitter k? its not those kinda fake streaks of bright hair color extension of wadeva u cal it k? its sm gluey sticky stuff tat comes fr a nail polish bottle + purple glitter..

here is more glue + purple glitter on my hair + nail art. look carefully n u'll c it. aftall, all of us haf sm nails, dun we? so nail arts wil look damn freakg small in the midst of my hair!

alriteys, tis my front outlook of the hairdo + makeup. isit nice? u judge but all i can say is, i dun like it. cos i feel like im gg for sm d & d or wedding dinner instead of doin a hair show. n mind u, the 1 who did tis for me wanted to create a jap look for me. well, isit jap? ok, u judge.

im glad tat joseph n serene came to watch the show but well, i sucks cos for a newbie wif no proper training to do her virgin catwalk infront of so many eyes + judges + cameras + flash light, IS NOT EASY!!! not forgetting the butterflies tat keeps flying in my stomach!! oh my.. my face smile until cramp until cann smile.. i've nv realised how hard it is to push my 2 chubby cheeks up til nw..

if u r nt a pro or has nv rcv any proper catwalk classes, forget abt gg on stage.. dun disgrace urself like me.. so wad if u tink u cat walk damn well at hm or on the st n can put on the brightest smile anytime, pls tink twice.. ITS REALI NT EASY.. gotta take time n experience..

aniw, tokg abt tat purple hair of mine which i took 3 hrs to remove all tat gluey sticky residue aft washing, (mind u, due to me wearg purple contact lenses, i was make up wif purple eyeshadow den nw purple hair!! :( damn sad ), i decided im nt gonna be a model. but, if u decide tat its a passion, let me share wif u how to remove all tat numerous amt of hair spray etc on ur head.

1) First, let the shower head rinse ur hair for at least 3 mins n pls pls let the water jus flow on ur hair continously. tis is to in a way 'soften' ur hair. (tis a tip fr joseph!! *cheers to him* lOlz )

2) Den, multiply the no. of times u usually pump for shampoo. (usu i pump 2 but today nt enuff so i pump 4!) Slowly apply to various parts of ur head n massage gently. pls note tat ur hair is bound to be full of tangles but at tis stage, ignore all tangles cos shampoo is nt gonna help!

3) Later, pump as much conditioner as u wan n apply all over ur head!! tats wad u need most now!! over here, u can slowly detangle ur hair n let it stay on for a while to moisten ur hair.

for me, tis 3 steps did nt fully help me recover bac my silky long hair cos u cant wash off glue jus lik tis. i had to sit in front of my fan n slowly pull out the sticky stuff stuck on my head. the most damn thing is i cant brush my way thru.. if u've got jus hair spray, u can do so but nt wif glue k. strand by strand, i pull out the 'little balls of glue' fr my hair. in the event, i broke n lost alot of hair. damnzz!~!~ n tis process took me 3 hrs cos sooo much hidden glue residue stil stickin on my head!!

ok enuff of tat gluey thingy. to b a model, yes, u need to haf 2 attributes n tat DOES NOT includes looks cos MAKEUP CAN DO WONDERS!! but pls, haf tat height n weight. well, tats the 2 thing i dun possess. the onli heavenly thing tat im bless wif is my smooth, near to flawless complexion which i've won numerous compliments n praises for.

yes, u may say i cant change my height but ya, i can change my weight. Pls think again. U r in a food glorious food country where everywhere is food!! how m i able to forgo all my fave deep fried chicken wings, calamari, fish & chips etc + all the high in cholestrol seafood consisting of my fave chilli crabs, oatmeal prawns, sotong etc + those creamy pasta, curries, cheese, steak n the list goes on n on.. !!!~~

for ur info, im a born carnivore n i dun touch a single veggie when i was young. i cant betray myself n say no to all those sambal kang kong, stingray, lala etc etc. i respect Jacelyn Tay for being a strict vegan who adores veggies, veggies n more veggies. even thou i do eat veggie nw but its onli certain types. (recently, i've developed a new likin to brocoli aft readin tat it contains lotsa vitamins n minerals) i cant imagine myself havin 80% veggie n 20% meat in my meal. Plus tat 20% meat is jus plain steam or boil wif no flavourings added. Oh my, pls kill me...

To me, eating is a joy n being able to savour all the good food is a heaven paradise. How i wish im blessed with a high metabolism rate but tat remains as a wish. haiz~~ exercise is the onli way to maintain weight but well, i admit. im lazy n its the extreme lazy tats y im stil unemployed now. (pls pls, wil sm airline pls employ me cos i reali wana fly fly fly up high in the sky!!) mind u, im waiting for my 2nd round of interview wif silkair tis comin wed. pls pray pray for me cos if i reali get to fly, rest assured tat i'll get gifts for all u ppl but u'll b put on waiting list.. lOlzz~~

every1 has their dreams, goals n ambition. my key interest doesn reali lies in modelling.. my passion for flying stil remains. other than tat, its dancing n acting.. i reali hope tat free dancing n acting lessons wil drop on the sky n let me catch hold of it cos its damn freakg ex for such lessons.. haiz~~ tat will always remains as my hope..

=.=.=.=.=

btw, i made a damn silly, blur n stupid mistake today. u knw y? i actualli tried driving a auto car using manual style. DAMN FUCKIN STUPID ME RITE?!!!? WTH!?! %$^&%# omg~ til nw, i stil cant believe tat i can move the gear to D n maintain my left foot on brake n right foot on accelerator n happily maintaining the half-clutch position n mysteriously wondering y the car can suddenly haf a hard stop n movin at a weird speed. OH PLS KILL ME!!! did sm stupid virus gt into my head or haf i unknowingly killed all my intelligent brain cells?!?!?!? aniw, either 1 is BAD enuff n i tink i gt both. damnzzz~~~!!!!

wadeva it is, rest assured tat I WILL NV MAKE TIS STUPID DUMB SILLY MORONIC MISTAKE EVER AGAIN!!!

n, i wil nv ever gif up all the delicious yummy fattening sinful food as well as my fave meal of the day (supper) all my life!! i dun care! i jus wana gobble them all up at once!! haha!!~~

=.=.=.=.=.

the time nw is 5.45am. its monday 22 aug. 3 mths 3 days to my BIG DAY on 25nov. yuppie, my 21st bday.. but i stil duno if any1 is gonna celebrate for me.. sob sob.. wil i ever get tat big key cake which alot of ppl had it? hey.. how many 21st bday do u get in a lifetime? its onli once. haiz~ silly me to haf such a wish rite? i tink im gettin eccentric n its a damnz. oh no, oh shit, oh my god!!

goodie morning!!~~ time to zzZZ (^-^)

4:28 AM

aManDa

My First Time On Stage~~

i refused to get out of bed tis morning cos im simply too tired.. went clubbing ytd n slept at 5am+.. omg~~ laze in bed til 10.45am n quickly got myself up..

rch eastpoint n went to the salon to do my hair n makeup.. gotta wear the contacts 1st b4 puttin on makeup.. aft puttin it on, my vision was blur!! omg~~ took it out n wore again but stil the same.. damn~~ start to kan chiong cos how to walk wif a blur vision?!~

den sm1 notice tat my contacts has got degrees.. omg~ im supposed to wear 0 deg lenses.. aniw, i took it out n got it changed..

the show started wif us cat walkin wif dresses sponsored by sugar link.. mine was a yellow flora dress.. quite sweet.. den we changed into t-shirts n jeans n cat walk again.. it wasnt a v gd one cos most of the gals walk soo damn fast n nt in neat order...

n u knw wad, i gt butterflies in my stomach!! i was so god damn nervous n my heart was like beating 10 counts faster than it shld b!! we had to do a intro of ourselves as well as the contact lenses color tat we r wearing cos they r giving an award cal 'Ms Dazzling Eyes' n i stammered!! wth~~ so of cos i din get it la!! but its alrite!!~~

der were oso sooo many photographers n so many cameras were shining on us.. my face even cramp until cann smile.. damnzz~~ nv had such an experience ever in my entire life!! the onli time i had my exposure of several cameras on me was when i was doin motorshow last yr..

aniw, tml stil got another show on.. gotta report at 10am.. givin out hair awards as well as 'Miss Trendy'.. do u tink i'll get it? lOlzz.. i dunno but i knw for sure tat im gg to gif my best shot.. jus hope tat i wont be as nervous as i m today..

my aim nw is to lose weight.. n go into modelling line freelance.. den i hope to fly.. be it silkair or sia.. althou tis a dilemnia to me but i'll jus let nature takes its course n leave it to fate to decide..

++i wish myself luck tml++

(^-^) gdnitez~~!! (^-^)

11:16 PM

aManDa

hiya.. its been a long time since i did so many stuff in a day.. lOlzz.. nua for too long liao suddenly so many things to do kinda nt used to it.. so tired.. haizz~~

my day started in the aftnoon.. my plan was to go orchard shop for trendy n chic clothes for my contest.. den i decided to drop by mandrain hotel for silkair interview.. (well they had a walk-in interview on 18 n 19aug) n I GOT IT!!! hee hee~~ yah.. i got in the first round.. lOlz~

there were soooo many gals der.. n its the same as sia.. 10 gals + 2 interviewers.. n im the first one.. damnz~~ we gotta self intro n tok abt ourselves den gotta read out the given passage.. everything went on quite smoothly.. when everything is over, we proceed outside at the waiting area for the results..

later a lady came out to announce the previous grp's results.. n she jus say 'sorry but we din manage to select any of ur. thank you for your time.' i was lik OMG!!! jialat.. r they gonna say the same thing for my grp?

thankfully, my name was called!!PHEWWWW!!! n a few others frm my grp were selected.. 2nd interview next wk.. at 9am at SIA Training Centre.. omg.. damn far sia.. sianzz~~

aniw, i was damn happy cos i got in!! yippeee... den i went shoopping!! den i saw weili at heeren n we had dinner den i go east point for my rehearsal..

i need to lose weight.. i seriously do..!! if nt i wont look gd n wont win the pageant liao.. haizz~~ we practice cat walk on stage n the position etc.. tried on the clothes.. mine was a yellow flora tube dress.. i did took some pics wif the other gals but im lazy to upload now..

quite a gd experience.. tml is the actual preview show liao.. sunday another show.. haiz~~ shag~~ aft rehearsal stil went to work.. aft work stil went momo.. can u imagine how tired i m now? n im stil sick.. aft 3 days of coughing n flu.. my voice is gettg sexier!!! haha~~

long long day.. aft club stil went newton eat.. (Well.. i jus ate my fave kailan veggie) n jonah was lik ' wad? u wana eat veggie AGAIN???' haha.. cos he's a carnivore!! lOlzz ~~

im gg zzz liao if nt tml nt pretty liao.. nite nite~~

5:07 AM

aManDa

headache!!! omg!!!

i've nv been so stressed in my life b4 til today. joseph agreed wif me. cos even during sch days when i was having exams, i've nv felt as stress as how im feelg rite nw..

im stuck.. sth is stucked in my brain cell. i cant tink. im stoned. pls kill me!!!!~~~

wad is trendy n chic? how to be trendy? omg.. suddenly i feel so out of the world cos I DUNNO WAD TO WEAR!!

i realise sth nw.. i need a new wardrobe.. OF CLOTHES!! oh my!!~~ y is tis happening to me? will sm1 pls gif me advice on wad to wear? i've taken snaps of some of my clothes.. advice pls!!~

1) tis a white cotton dress frm Zara. Its kinda low cut so need to wear a tube or bikini top inside. more of casual wear to shopping, coffee or beach.

2) tis a black halter black dress wif fluffiness on the stomach area. flare cutting at the bottom. the back is lower than the bra strap. so its either i go bra-less or get 1 of those stick on bras..

3) okies.. tis another black dress which belongs to my sis.. its toga on the left side.. has got sm flora lace along the slants.. slightly folded at the hips area.. well.. actuali i duno hw to describe tat..

4) white jacket frm a ulu shop in Taiwan. 3/4 sleeves - exec yet casual look wif 3 buttons.

5) yellow short cardigan.. 3/4 sleeves.. another 1 frm a ulu shop in Taiwan.. currently in fashion nw..

6) White tube top frm Dorothy Perkins. rubber elastics on the top n bottom..

7) greenish-blue skirt wif fluffiness on the bottom.. wif 2 small pockets on the front..

8) ok.. tis sth unique.. its acualli sth lik 3/4 pants but aft u tie it, it looks like a skirt. u gotta fold down the red flaps den tie round wif the strings. made of cotton material..

9) alritey.. i find tis skirt very unique.. fr another ulu shop in Taiwan.. its a purple pleated 3/4 skirt.. wif flora lace at the bottom.. i tink tis quite cool but i've gt a big butt.. sigh~ how?!?!?

10) another 3/4 skirt.. got tis fr my sch bazzar.. the design is pretty straight-forward. needless to say..

11) beidge knee length skirt fr mango. has got 2 slits on the front n back.. looks abit flare feeling..

12) dunno wad brand brown-greyish jeans fr wisma.. wif a bit of faded color on the thighs areas..

okies.. tats the few pieces of clothings which i've briefly selected.. i knw its nt fantastic but pls gif me sm comments.. post it on my tag board pls... tell me wad i shld wear to look trendy n chic!! tats the theme!! omg~~

i need to go shopping tml.. for new clothes shoes n accessories!! the following days r gg to be damn packed.. yes.. i mean it..~~ my schedule is packed!! damnzz~~ those were the slacking days..

tis gonna be the 1st beauty pagaent tat im gonna take part in my whole entire life.. the winner shall represent Singapore to go to China n take part in Miss World 2005.. well, i knw im not gonna win cos im short n fat.. no looks, no brains n no figure.. damn sad rite~ haizz wad to do.. i'm jus treatin it as a life experience..

aftall, how many ppl put der actuali gt the chance to take part in a contest like tis.. it seems to me tat im reali sm1 who like to take up new challenges n experience.. always ready to try on new stuff in life..

++ preview round of Miss Singapore World 2005 tis n next wkend at Eastpoint startin at 4-5pm ++ come down support me if u r free.. i truly need n appreciates it ++

1:22 AM

aManDa