Tuesday, August 02, 2005


my last day of work





finalli i manage to pluck up my courage n tell tracy tat i wana resign.. reali cant stay in this company anim... everyday 1 hr to n fro work.. wake up at 6.30am b4 the sun is up is a extreme torture........ but im glad its over now.. haizz... poor shirlene, she's gonna be alone der.. i'll miss her man.. she's such a nice lovely gal.. best smoking khaki oso.. lolzz

aniw, life still gotta move on... i need to get on a job which i like in order for me to excel..

came hm str aft work today.. so damn many ppl on the train.. hate it man.. i mus get my own car in future.. my aim is b4 25yrs.. haha..

ate my fave xian yu chao fan for dinner today...yummy!!! watch tv awhile but realise the shows sucks these days.. even the ones on my fave ch55.. so sad.. decide to come online.. editin my blog skin jus nw.. gt so piss.. cant close the right column...looks so weird now.. nvm.. i'll try again next time..

aniw.. shirlene highlighted sth to me abt my love life today... now than i knw y i cant let go of my ex-bf even thou its 3 yrs ago... cos he was the one who 'brought' me up in the sense tat its bcos of him tat i grew up and bcm more matured...

went thru many ups n downs wif him.. joy n sorrow.. he's 1 guy who reali sincerely n truthfully cared for me the most in my life but i was stil young bac den so i felt he was possessive.. i reali regret breaking up wif him in a fit of anger.. i tot i wld meet a betta guy aft him but i was wrong.. no1 can be compared to him at all.. he's the onli guy who reali bare his true self n heart to me... i reali miss him so much...

if onli i had handled things betta den probably we wld be preparing for our wedding now.. tat was our initial plan.. to get married aft i graduate.. haizz.. y m i so stupid??!!

if onli i could turn bac time now, i wouldn haf done all the things i did..

i reali wan him bac now but i dunno how.. he's the onli guy i ever love so much so far.. even aft so long, i'll stil miss him n he's still constantly on my mind..

i reali cant forget the time we were tog.. the happiness n sadness we shared.. the quarrels n making up... the dinners n suppers we had... the rags n riches... so many things.. all still remain fresh in my memory..

i did too many things in my life tat i regret but breaking up wif him is my uttermost regret...

i dun even haf his number n he gt a gf nw.. damn.. tat gal reali gotta thank her lucky stars tat she met him... i feel pissed whenever im reminded of the gal.. wth.. she dun deserve him at all... aniw, i shld blame myself oso.. if onli i did not tell him certain things den prob he wouldn't haf got tog wif the gal.. argh...another mistake!!! y i keep doin the wrong tings...

sm1 pls kill me ba....


1:50 AM


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